with all me heart :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
| HAPPY AND MERRY CHRISTMAS TRAV! |
Dear love of my life - I have so much to tell you. :) Whenever I am here, and drifting off to sleep without you, I miss you but I can always feel your love in my life. It's usually then, in bed thinking of you, that I wish I had a laptop so I could send you all the happy thoughts I'm having. But, I don't...so when I wake up, I've usually forgotten all the wonderful things I was thinking the night before. So tonight I want you to see the extent of my love for you. :)
Together, we've been through so many stages. The fun and enigmatic ways we got together at first, then getting to know each other over Christmas last year, trying to find middle ground where we would both be comfortable, slowly discovering how awesome we were together, falling in love, successfully maintaining and developping our relationship over the summer, and adjusting to new circumstances once again in September. The paradox of time while being with you is so wonderful - all at once it feels as though i've known you all my life (maybe that's just wishful thinking!) and yet as though this year and some has been only weeks. And when I think of all the ways having you in my life has augmented my happiness...I can only hope to have you in my life for weeks/years to come! :)
Without doing a complete dissection of Travy, let me say that all around and all together you are (and have) one incredible package. :) As we spend more time together, I'm starting to notice more things - such as how honest you are, and genuinely of good character. You're a hard worker and you always accept responsibility for the things you do, good and bad! :) Also, you really seem to put people at ease..I think it's your warm smile and your playful sense of humour. 'Cause sure, I thought you were gorgeous and wasn't afraid to tell you how hot you were. But for one drunken night to turn into hundreds of days of happiness, well, I definitely saw so much more in you...your kindness is not easily overlooked. I love you :)
Of course, you already know all the reasons why I love you...but, I'd like to add a few recent examples of that. Last week, you did a lot of amazing things for me. I can't believe you were going to treat me to such a relaxing evening after my exam! You're so thoughtful :) And listening to you play guitar was...something that just made me so happy. :) I'm really looking forward to the day when we can play together! And, no matter how mean or stupid I've been during the few misunderstandings we've had, you've never let me go. I've never met someone like you...who is so confident, he can put right and wrong secondary to the well-being of the person. Also, you, despite a stressful situation, a negative value of directional intelligence in the passenger seat, and a confusing coat of snow everywhere, got me to my train on time. Thank you! :)
I hope you still think the best of me. I care for you so much...romantically, and as a friend too - fully, wholely, and complete, as one independent human being to another. i love you. care for you with all me 'art. :)
honestly and for real, when you were hunting and i was making that little book - i meant it all so much that it brought tears to my eyes to think about. I really do always want to have you around - my life would be so much more dull, and lacking if there ever comes a time when I don't feel this closeness between us. I feel so lucky to have met you - and if I ever do anything to damage our friendship, I won't be able to forgive myself in this lifetime.
I started thinking about what, at this stage in our lives, a significant other should be...and I think I decided that a good role to fill is someone who makes you happy..warms your heart at will. :) he or she should also be a companion for some adventures - and someone to listen to the other ones. lastly i think that it's someone you should be able to be yourself with, and someone you trust with the details of your life. and that's you for me, travy. :)
anyway, i'm getting really exhausted and hungry..so i think it's time for a very happy sleep. :) My room finally looks like Christmas...my favourite decorations are a festive cat sitting in a big arm chair, and a little set of electric candles. And of course my tiny stocking. I wish so much that we could be together tonight and enjoy the season together...but, I would never want you to be away from home at this time of year either, 'cause it's the best place to be. :)
So instead this is the best I can do...just hope that you can see how I feel about you. :) mwah. and, I hope you like midi files!! :)
lots and lots of Christmasy love,
your girl :)
